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End of the Month

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Can you believe that it is the end of June already? Not only is it the end of the month, but it is also the half way point of the year. this month, I have completed the main project that I have set out to do. I have finished the second draft of my upcoming book: Sailing Under The Black Flag. I also wrote all of the Bubblews that I said that I would write this month. Ihave done some work on my travel trailer, I have done some painting and I have installed the air conditioner, however, there is so many more projects to complete.

End Of The First Half Of The Year

Here is how i am doing affirmations that I have set up so far for this year:

January” ” I am organized and productive. As you know, I moved at the beginning of the month and had to move quickly so I have been working this month at trying to get organized. I have not finished it yet, but I have made a start. I have been painting my kitchen cabinets and painted the desk in my livingroom. It is really starting to take shape.

February: “I am energetic, fit,, strong, and healthy”..I am continuing to eat healthy foods. During this month, my daughter has been visiting, and I have been super hot. When I am uncomfortable I tend to eat. I feel uncomfortable when I am hot so I have found myself eating more than I should. Also when my daughter is visiting, I like to take her out to eat and so again, i am eating more. Exercising has also not been high on my to do list so it has not been done either.

March:  “I First seek to Understand, then seek to be understood” I think that I have fallen short in this area too. Both in the understanding and being understood part. My husband and his girlfriend decided to come down here for a camping trip while my daughter was here. They then asked her to go with them. She, of course, wanted to go because they were also going on a float trip. All this was during few days that I had to be with my daughter. I ended up yelling at my daughter for wanting to go. I feel bad about it.. I tried to understand, but I am certain that I have not been understood.

April:“I am a spiritual being in a physical body”. With this one, I seem to be becoming more and more aware that this is true. The problems that I have been facing lately have been a challenge both for me physically and spiritually. I have been living on my spiritual edge.

May: “I am In Control of My Destiny.” I have been having to remind myself of this constantly this month. I am in control, even though I do not feel like it right now. I am having to take life one day at a time, forgive myself of my mistakes and move on. This is after all a journey.

June: “I am a Prolific Writer” Yes, I am a prolific writer. I am almost as I thought I was!  I have found that Parkinson’s Law is indeed true for the most part. Work does fill the time available for it,  but it does have its limits. I missed two of these blog posts.I did however meet my goal of finishing the second draft of Sailing Under The Black Flag.

Looking Ahead To The Second Half Of The Year

As you probably guessed, one of my goals for July is to finish the second draft of yet another book this one is In the Shadow Of The Mill Pond. Again, finishing this draft in July will keep me on track to finish the three books that I intend to publish this year.  I intend to publish A Coward’s Solace at the end of July, to publish Sailing Under the Black Flag in September. In November for NaNoWriMo, I will be doing the first draft of a book that is not yet named(book 6 of the Locket Saga. I will then be publishing In the Shadow of the Mill Pond in December..Although I am somewhat keeping up with the affirmations of the first half of the year, there are a few of the goals that I wrote at the beginning of the year that I have not actually started working on yet.  The main goal that I have not yet accomplished or actually started working on much is selling 1000 books per month. i am nowhere near that number. I will really start focusing on that goal after I finish the second draft of In The Shadow Of The Mill Pond in July. I have actually been seeing some ways that I should be able to make that happen. In addition to finishing the two novels and getting my trailer fixed up, this is going to be my main focus during the second half of the year.

 

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Donna Brown is an ordained minister. As Author Cygnet Brown, she  has recently published her first nonfiction book: Simply Vegetable Gardening: Simple Organic Gardening Tips for the Beginning Gardener

She is also the author of historical fiction series The Locket Saga. which includes When God Turned His Head and Soldiers Don’t Cry, the Locket Saga Continues. Her upcoming book A Coward’s Solace will be available soon. Click here for more information about Cygnet Brown and her books.


Counting My Blessings

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I am becoming a very grateful person. So many good things have come into my life. I look at all that I feel blessed  the fact that I can wake up in the morning and breathe without machines and the fact that I do not have to take medications either. Most of the people my age are not so fortunate. I feel blessed that I have a car to drive and a home to live in in which I have not payments to make. (I wish I could say the same about my college debt, but I am working on that.)
I am learning to count my blessings in every situation rather than anything that can be negative about that situation. It helps me focus on the possibilities rather than the problems. Although I have had relationships that have ended, I do not regret any of them that I have had. I have three wonderful children despite broken relationships with their father.
I spend a specific time each day to think about everything that I am thankful for. This time is just as I am going to sleep. Nothing is more peaceful that the knowledge that I have so much to be thankful for.
I try to share my gratitude with at least one person every week. I hope that by doing so, it helps that person have a better day.
I thank people for service that they have given me. What better way to improve someone else’s day than by thanking them for a service that is often not acknowledged nor appreciated.
I also try to look for the blessings that are attached to my goals. I look for those times when others have gone out of their way to help me. I look for those people who encourage me so that I can be grateful. I look for those ways that others have made my day just that much better.

 

I am blessed in the knowledge that I have completed the second draft of my next novel: Sailing Under The Black Flag a few days early. Early enough that I can get caught up on other writing projects and ahead before i have to work on the second draft of my next book: In The Shadow Of The Millpond.

Safe but Curious

We are told to step out of our comfort zone, but at the same time, we are also told to think things through before stepping out into the unknown, both are polar opposites, and yet, they are also both very true.

Curiosity Killed the cat, but satisfaction brought him back.”

In everything there needs to be a balance. If there is one thing that I learned when I was in my philosophy classes in college was that what is true for one person’s circumstance is not always true for another person’s. It is not even necessarily true for the same person in different circumstances.
Have you ever stood on the edge of a cliff and looked over a large drop-off? One wrong step and you could be history, but you still stand on the edge. Why is that? It is because the view is breathtaking. If you stayed where it is safest, you would not have been able to see things from that vantage point.
Playing it safe is. . .well. . . safe, but stepping out of our comfort zone can be so much more rewarding. Think about ways that you can step out and be noticed.

My life lately has been like that I am very near the edge of my comfort zone and at time I feel very uncomfortable.as of late, I have been over extending myself.  However, in the process, my world is ever expanding and I am finding satisfaction as I make those changes in my life.

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Donna Brown is an ordained minister. As Author Cygnet Brown, she  has recently published her first nonfiction book: Simply Vegetable Gardening: Simple Organic Gardening Tips for the Beginning Gardener

She is also the author of historical fiction series The Locket Saga. which includes When God Turned His Head and Soldiers Don’t Cry, the Locket Saga Continues. Her upcoming book A Coward’s Solace will be available soon. Click here for more information about Cygnet Brown and her books.


What should I do now?

What should I do now?

As you probably noticed, my post for Monday and Last Friday were the same. I had the day scheduled, but I neglected to put anything on it besides my signature information at the end of the post. Not that it was such a bad think. I actually had someone share it on his Facebook page.

No Excuses

I could easily make up an excuse for dropping the ball. I have a lot of them. I could also say that I should just let the blog go for a while, but I am not going to do that. Today I am picking the ball back up and continuing with this blog.

Why I Dropped The Ball

When we drop the ball, it is always a good idea to understand exactly what happened and why. The truth was, I actually forgot on both Friday and Monday to write the posts. There is a difference between understanding why and making an excuse. An excuse is a way for a person to find a way to quit. I am not quitting.

This month my goal and affirmation is to be a proficient writer and I certainly am. I dropped just two blog posts since the first of the year. In addition, I have to go into town in order to post my blog posts. i live 12 miles from town. In addition, to writing this week, I have been running all over creation for things to fix up my trailer. I got my air conditioner in Monday night. With temperatures running in the mid-nineties and high humidity, a good air conditioner is a necessity.

Finally, my daughter is visiting me and we have been doing things together including visiting friends, going out to dinner, and going to the river. This week she is helping me paint the cabinets in my trailer.

Getting Back On Track

So today, it is time to get back on track. So how do I prevent this from happening again in the future?

The obvious answer is that I must not over-commit to so many things in one week. Over-commitment is the number one reason for anyone to forget to do something.

Another answer is to make and keep a schedule. Since moving I have not been keeping a schedule. Over the weekend, I started working on one.

Becoming more organized again is another answer. There are a number of things that I will need to do to make my life more organized, but certain aspects of organizing  the trailer are going to take some additional time including getting internet in my home.

Over the next several weeks, I will continue to write (the second draft on Book Four of the Locket Saga: Sailing Under The Shadow of the Black Flag is still right on track.), work on my trailer, and keep up with my other writing projects including keeping up with this blog.

 

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Donna Brown is an ordained minister. As Author Cygnet Brown, she  has recently published her first nonfiction book: Simply Vegetable Gardening: Simple Organic Gardening Tips for the Beginning Gardener

She is also the author of historical fiction series The Locket Saga. which includes When God Turned His Head and Soldiers Don’t Cry, the Locket Saga Continues. Her upcoming book A Coward’s Solace will be available soon. Click here for more information about Cygnet Brown and her books.


Regular Post

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Donna Brown is an ordained minister. As Author Cygnet Brown, she  has recently published her first nonfiction book: Simply Vegetable Gardening: Simple Organic Gardening Tips for the Beginning Gardener

She is also the author of historical fiction series The Locket Saga. which includes When God Turned His Head and Soldiers Don’t Cry, the Locket Saga Continues. Her upcoming book A Coward’s Solace will be available soon. Click here for more information about Cygnet Brown and her books.


Regular post

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Donna Brown is an ordained minister. As Author Cygnet Brown, she  has recently published her first nonfiction book: Simply Vegetable Gardening: Simple Organic Gardening Tips for the Beginning Gardener

She is also the author of historical fiction series The Locket Saga. which includes When God Turned His Head and Soldiers Don’t Cry, the Locket Saga Continues. Her upcoming book A Coward’s Solace will be available soon. Click here for more information about Cygnet Brown and her books.


Rainbows on Saturday and Sunday

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Look for the rainbows on your journey.

It has been raining a lot here lately and on my way home from work this weekend at eight o’clock at night I saw rainbows both on Saturday and on Sunday. On each day, at exactly the same time, I saw rainbows. This gave me the sense that  perhaps, someone was trying to tell me something.
I reread the story of Noah. (Genesis chapters 6-9).because the promise of the rainbow was significant to the story.  I reread the story of Noah and the trial that he faced that God led him through. In the end, God put the rainbow in the clouds to remind Noah and future generations of God’s covenant with all of the earth. He promised never again to destroy all of the earth by water. Eventually there is coming a judgement not by water, but by fire.
As I think about those two consecutive days of rainbows, I thought about the covenant that God has with the believer. Our first covenant with God is through water baptism. A second is through the baptism of the Holy Spirit. The first is by water, the second is by fire. I didn’t really  understand the connection, but a friend on another site explained it to me. He said that the only way a person can witness a rainbow is that the individual has to be in the right place at the right time. In addition, we have to be looking up..

It  was a reminder to me that God loves me and that he is protecting me. I felt gratitude as I drove home both days.

Restoration

Another way that we can have rainbows in our lives is when we look for the ways that we see God at work doing other things.

On Saturday,  I I answered a call at work. To my surprise, it was the guy who had stolen my debit card at work over a month and a half earlier. He called to tell me that he was sorry that he had taken it and that he was glad that I pressed charges, because he had been really messed up and now he was going to be getting the help that he needed.
I told him that I appreciated that he had called me and talked to me. I said that he indeed did need help and that I hoped that he got it.
He told me that he would pay me back the money that he stole. I basically told him that was out of my hands because the bank had covered what he had taken and they would demand that he give the money back. I told him that I had forgiven him and that I was glad that he was getting the help that he needed to overcome his addictions. I pray that this has been a turning point in his life. He has a wife and two little boys who really need a father who will step up and be a the husband and father that they need.
I do not believe that he is likely to spend any time in jail. His mother paid for a good lawyer for him. Just months ago, I would have been upset because it looks as if the young man is getting off easy. However, now, I just pray that this has been a lesson that he will never forget. I pray that he goes into drug rehab (he took the money to buy drugs) and really does change. I know that overcoming addiction is difficult, and I pray that the incident is a wake-up call for him, that he becomes a better husband and father to his family.
I realize that although most of what happened was about him, it was also my test. I did what I had to do when I turned him in to the sheriff’s office. However, in personally forgiving him, I also did what I had to do. It was all about doing the right thing and I know that is exactly what I did. The right thing now it to forgive him and become a different part of the solution.

Am I Now A Fiction Writing Coach?

I thought that one of the guys that I worked with knew that I was a published author, but he did not.  He asked me what I wrote so I told him what books I had written.
He then found it strange that I mentioned being an author because he too used to write, but over the past several months he was not able to put words to paper. I asked him what he wrote and he told me that he wrote science fiction fantasy. However, he said that he had not written for 4-5 months. He had been thinking just the night before that perhaps he should quit thinking about writing all together. I told him that I didn’t think that was such a good idea. I suggested that he try again.
The next day when I saw him, I asked him how much he had written and he confessed that he was not able to write a single word. I told him what he had was writer’s block and that his problem was that he was afraid to make a mistake. He agreed that was exactly what the problem was.
I told him to give his internal editor a rest, and let his muse play a little.

Suggestions For Entertaining The Muse

I told him:

  1. Forget the rules and just write Have fun with the words.
  2. Don’t worry about the order of what was writing and to just write what you knew now. Computers were made to move words around so he should take advantage of that capability.
  3. Write an outline to help give your story parameters.
  4. Interview his characters so that you could separate the characters from your own personality.
  5. To steal from Niki, don’t think about it, just do it, write it down. Make every moment at the computer count. Don’t let your internal editor out until you have something to edit

The Results

Later that day, he texted me and told me that he had written one scene that was 404 words long. He said it felt good to be writing again. He said that he was looking forward to doing more. The following day he said that he had a number of new ideas for his book. His dry spell is over. His words are now flowing like a fountain.

These are just two more of the rainbows that I have witnessed over the past several days. How about you? Are there things in your life that you might not otherwise see if you had not been in the right place at the right time?

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Donna Brown is an ordained minister. As Author Cygnet Brown, she  has recently published her first nonfiction book: Simply Vegetable Gardening: Simple Organic Gardening Tips for the Beginning Gardener

She is also the author of historical fiction series The Locket Saga. which includes When God Turned His Head and Soldiers Don’t Cry, the Locket Saga Continues. Her upcoming book A Coward’s Solace will be available soon. Click here for more information about Cygnet Brown and her books.


Don’t Think Of A Pink Elephant!

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If I told you don’t think about an elephant with a top hat, I will bet that right now you are thinking about an elephant with a top hat. This is evidence that  we resist, really does persist!.

What We Resist Persists

Someone once said that our unconscious minds cannot discern the meaning of the concept of not. I tend to believe that is true. This reinforces the success principle: Where you focus your energy, focuses your attention.

What you resist persists because that is where your focus lies. Rather than looking at what you don’t want to do, look at what you want to do!
One effective way to keep from thinking negative thoughts is by focusing your attention on a mantra to help you focus on your goal. The mantra that I am using is “I can do this and I know I can. Whatever you chose to repeat over and over needs to be in the present tense (I am). My monthly affirmations are a form of mantra. This month is “I am a prolific writer”.

Therefore, I have a system that gets me enthusiastic about the goals that I have for the day. Before I begin each session,  i set a timer and repeat over and over the words, “I can do this, and I know I can” over and over for five minutes. I focus on my breathing, the mantra, and that I am calm and confident. After the five minutes is up, I begin writing. I do it the same time every day and don’t quit until I have at least one thousand words on my novel. Later at the library,  I determine which bubblew or blog post that I need to write and I work on it until I am done.

If I had however, focused on the fact that I have a lot to do, I doubt I would get any of it done. I would start making excuses concerning why I cannot get it done. As you can see however, I am not doing that. I am reaching my daily, weekly, and monthly goals. In just over six months I will have also completed my annual goals because I am not focusing on negative aspects of my goals.

Don’t Hang Onto Bad Relationships

I saw my estranged husband the other day and I told him about speaking in front of an audience the other day. He tried to take credit saying that what he had been saying to me had finally sunk in. i have no idea where he thought that he had anything to do with the positive place where I am now. I always felt that he was the one who kept me from reaching for my goals. I felt as though he thought that my goals were not worthy to attempt. I felt as though any time that I wanted to do something, he made it all the more difficult to do it because he stressed my inabilities rather than my abilities.

I told him that I realized that neither of us were good for the other and that we were stuck in that relationship for too long. Staying too long in a relationship that does not serve either party is definitely something that someone should not do.

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Donna Brown is an ordained minister. As Author Cygnet Brown, she  has recently published her first nonfiction book: Simply Vegetable Gardening: Simple Organic Gardening Tips for the Beginning Gardener

She is also the author of historical fiction series The Locket Saga. which includes When God Turned His Head and Soldiers Don’t Cry, the Locket Saga Continues. Her upcoming book A Coward’s Solace will be available soon. Click here for more information about Cygnet Brown and her books.

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